Wednesday, July 19, 2017


New baby on board! His siblings did not make it. Died in the nest and covered with maggots. My baby was covered in millions of mites and looking mighty poorly after jumping from the mud nest. We dug the other babies out and buried them. The lone survivor is doing good. A little more alert each time I feed/water him. Now he chirps when he hears me walk into the room. He's pooped once. Are these the good years? Lol. I should say they are It's touch and go for a while... and I hope my baby makes it to enjoy a good life of natural everyday things. The need is the call.

Sunday, July 16, 2017


2 more chapter to go... chapter review of tons of questions/answers to find your weak spots.  Then... big test and hopefully pass on the first try to become a licensed real estate agent in Texas. I'm very proud and it's been nice learning something new. I'm looking forward to new adventures.

So Pat laid it out there and thinks  I would do well at a remote gathering she found.  Must be able to use your gift - check. Must NOT speak traditional "Christianese" - double check. Must be wanting to be flung into hell and determined to survive and thrive. - check and double check check. I do want to do this. It's on my mind daily to some small degree. Of course I don't feel qualified which will probably qualify me in this field. Humble. I want a fully committed heart first. I'd also want a confirmation from the Lord.

Friday, July 14, 2017


None of that for me, thank you. I've spent my life helping and caring for people and animals. Very compassionate. I'd never dream of wanting to run around with someone and let them entertain me... pay for my lunches most of the time; show up at their house to eat home-cooked meals whilst having such a low opinion of them that rolls off the tongue with little prodding. But you'd be surprised. I've learned to wise up big time at this point in my life. If it means sitting it out... indefinitely.... then that's what it means. When there's not a good move to make, you don't make one. Go with those gut feelings. One of the most important things I've learned is that when people show you and actually tell you who they are... believe them. I couldn't imagine sitting beside someone and making fun of them so badly as a way to get them out of your life and being so tickled and proud of it in front of your favorite child that you gripe about having to support all the time. But you'd be surprised. I got tired of being surprised.

Yesterday was a day of trimming a section of hedges that nearly took me out. Full sun and a lot of suffering... but the results were amazing and inspiring to keep it going. One of the larger bird couples around here had the perfect nest until a branch broke and fell out. Then her nest was left almost sideways and in full sun. The eggs were getting too hot and she was trying to make an umbrella with her wing while nearly burning up alive herself. We had a piece of brown netting from the craft store and made a hammock; tied both ends to the biggest branch and cinched it up. It was a good day.

Thursday, July 13, 2017


3 more to go.

Ray Ray is feeling like his old little kitten self again. So much energy and always extra alert. Yesterday morning at feeding time, he saw a huge field rat... nabbed him up and ran into the cattery with him. A real hunter. I've seen him catch snakes (in years past) and they'd be curling all up around his head and trying to get away. He'd get under the house or deck. Somewhere where you couldn't get to him and eat his prey. He learned.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017


Well I've failed the chapter 14 test twice by one question each time. Not for it not being "right" but just not the best of the right answers available although they were all really right. Not quite right enough is the new "wrong". Almost ready to eat a bullet here. And I tell you, I could care less what the King thought about dispersing land to the few lucky or how he took the land back or never gave it in the first place... all one big farce.

In my mind I think about how much I hate wrapped white canvas now and how blinding it is and I just need to get away from it. I think about the 2 wooden rounds I painted from that rotted down coffee table so many months back now. I want to paint on the wood again. I kind of paint on it in my mind. Found a youtube on how to make the box lid type things. I can actually do my painting first and frame it up later. Sounds good to me.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017


Chapter 13 is finished per yesterday. Hopefully have another good report tonight concerning chapter 14.  We found an alternative office location we'd like to check out given it's the same company we'd hoped for.  Different location. Little by little I can see it all coming together.

Monday, July 10, 2017


profoundly immoral and malevolent.

If you ever get the instruction and feeling that someone or some "thing" in your life is evil and needs to be let go or permanently removed immediately... don't use your own judgment or knowledge of what you think the word evil means. Evil can be more simple than you think. Don't discredit it. Don't second-guess it. Don't think it has to look and act like Medusa.